Mark and I met with Dr. Campbell today expecting two things–finding out where the cancer was growing since my blood counts were up and learning what medicine I would be switching to. I was waiting to learn just how fast the rest of my hair would fall out and just how awful the side effects of whatever aggressive new medicine would be.
But neither happened. Instead we learned that the imaging I underwent last week showed no evidence that the cancer is on the move. My bones are “grossly stable” (sounds funny to me), my liver is stable, and the nodules in my lungs have had very minor growth over the last year. I feel as though my mouth dropped open more and more as our meeting went on. I felt like saying “Huh?”
So, what is causing the tumor markers to sound the alarm? Basically, we don’t know. Dr. Campbell suspects it may be the pleural fluid I’ve been dealing with since spring. Each time my markers were taken, it was before getting drained. We’ll take tumor markers again tomorrow just to see if they were effected by the drain I had last week.
As for medicine, he is taking me off the Epirubicen, not because he didn’t think it worked, but because there is a lifetime dose maximum before the medicine threatens the heart. I had the same med 8 years ago, so I’ve had close to my lifetime max. He’s also switching my orals meds, taking out the one I’m on that gives me night sweats and a voracious appetite and putting in one he believes will be even more effective controlling the fluid. I’m extremely willing to let that one go.
Essentially, the meeting today could not have been better. The med switch could not leave me more optimistic that my hair will start filling in, my energy will return, and a few pounds will go back where they came from. I will admit that I had absolutely no hope that this would be the outcome of our meeting today. People would say that they were hoping and praying for a good outcome from the tests and meeting today and I’m afraid I was rather dismissive as if a good outcome were not possible.
Perhaps this is why my former pastor’s words ring so true to me so often. Years ago she had said to me, “Remember, if you can’t keep the faith, let the faith keep you.” Recently I heard another sermon with essentially the same message.
It has been getting very hard to keep the faith. Thanks for keeping me. I am, as always, so grateful.
20 replies on “huh?”
Oh, Tasha. So happy. So relieved. Love you so.
LOVE this great news! And love you too. We are celebrating over here! Chris and Alison
Phew. I wasn’t even sure what to say to you this afternoon.
What a relief. I hope you have a good night’s sleep. Can’t wait to celebrate w/ you on Thursday. May happy dancing commence.
celebrating the great news tash! big smile on my face!
Thanks for sharing this great news! With you, Gidge and I continue walking and praying.
Oh – what wonderful wonderful news. So very happy and relieved. Love you Tash.
Such fabulous news!! And a big hug to each of the M-T family from me and Zoey-the-dog!
absolutely wonderful…thrilled you got such great news and thankful for a renewed spirit today!
We are rejoicing with you! I am so reminded of your quote from Great is Thy Faithfulness- “Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow”. Love you.
So thrilled along with you for such good news! And right in time with such celebrative weather, too!
That is great to hear, Tash! As always, thanks for sharing. xo
so good… so, so good.
amazing update. I like those good “huh?” moments:)
May there be many more.
Oh Tash! What good news. So good to be surprised by joy. Raising a cup of coffee for you!
Whew. So relieved! So happy!! Celebrating your good health!!! Much Love!!!!
Another amazing answer to prayer!! So, so excited for you and your family Tash! Love, cousin Nanc
I’m smiling as I write this, and I’ll smile as I pray for you and yours tonight.
Your posting reminds me of a remarkable interpretation I heard on Isaiah 40:31 by Rev. John Timmer a long time ago. “..but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Rev. Timmer pointed out that the order is reversed from what we would expect. Shouldn’t we walk, then run, then fly? But he noted that no, most of the time it takes all the energy we have to just walk without fainting….and God gives us the energy to do that each day through our trials. We may soar from time to time, but the hardest part is to just keep walking in His grace each day of our lives. Blessings, prayers and great news.
Stopped by for an update on your life….hope all things are great. Melanie